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About Me Member Traditional Artist lost-to-adorn-you22/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Self Hate

Wed Jul 1, 2009, 10:41 PM
I never write Blogs anymore. Lately Ive been in a slum, i need (wish) i could get out of it. Any who i hope life starts to turn around soon as far as everything goes... life, work, school etc. I'm hoping to transfer to a new store soon i need to run it by work. i want to transfer to greenwood or Beech Grove for it will be closer to where i am living. I know things usually are bad before they start looking up and i just hope things look up eventually. Its like 2:23 right now and i got so many thoughts going on:( I feel like drawing more which i guess is good. I used to draw ALL the time and now id be lucky to get 2-3 drawings out of myself a year lol. I guess that's what happens when you get busy or stressed you loose the desire to do things. I have my financial aid done for school and that's ready to go, i guess that's one thing to look forward to. I'm taking 3 classes, not quiet full time but almost their. I got full financial aid too which is cool, i don't have to really pay :) I'm hoping to use school and everything as my way out eventually, ya know getting a job and just moving up in the career world. Anyways i keep jumping around with this.. I think my closer friends know whats going on with me and those who don't oh well its not important. I just have a LONG way to go with some things. It hasn't been an easy road and i don't expect it to get better anytime soon. I think im in my lowest of lows at the moment just minus some of the actions from the past. but its life, i must struggle threw day by day because i make it what it is. This has been another Rant from the great mind of heather!! thanks for tuning in.. till next time Good night America!!!!

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: the background TV
  • Reading: what im writing
  • Watching: the screen
  • Playing: my emotions
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

deviantID

Wandering in the shadows only to find fear. Fearing to remember the known. Knowing the Forgotten. Indulging in the Darkness. Pleasuring thoughts of ecstasy. Harming our own minds with our pasts. the Goal to move Forward fails with every attempt to become sane. Leave yourself here naked unaware unknowing forgotten and alone. whisper to me thee end.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: meh room or car
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: Bigger is better
  • Interests: art, music, stuff,Ian
  • Favourite movie: Gladiator
  • Favourite band or musician: Afi/blaqk audio
  • Favourite genre of music: punk, thrash, grunge, emo
  • Favourite artist: georgia o'keef
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edger allen Poe
  • Favourite photographer: yet again dont ask me that question..
  • Favourite style of art: mixed media, charcoal
  • Operating System: Dell which i dont got
  • MP3 player of choice: meh zune
  • Shell of choice: i dont know im gona start puting random stuff here
  • Wallpaper of choice: afi
  • Skin of choice: 0__o
  • Favourite game: tomb raider, guitar hero or mario
  • Favourite gaming platform: wii
  • Favourite cartoon character: cheese woot
  • Personal Quote: What we do in life echos an eternity
  • Tools of the Trade: charcoal bitches

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Comments


:iconsembre:
Thanks for the :+fav: :)

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:ninjabattle:
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:iconsubmindy:
Thanks for the watch

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When I fall into the void what do you think I will see?
:iconlost-to-adorn-you:
hey havent seen U in forever how are you??

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If you find yourself alone fighting in green feilds with the sun on your face do not be trobled for you are in alysum and are already dead, for the others what we do in life echos and eternity...
:iconsubmindy:
fine....ummm sorry can't remember how do I know you?

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When I fall into the void what do you think I will see?
:iconlost-to-adorn-you:
lol heather ajs friend and um the one that works at marsh lol

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If you find yourself alone fighting in green feilds with the sun on your face do not be trobled for you are in alysum and are already dead, for the others what we do in life echos and eternity...
:iconsubmindy:
ah I remember now! so how are you?? Hope you like my deviations btw

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When I fall into the void what do you think I will see?

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